The Path that lead to my Spiritual Awakening
Prior to my spiritual awakening the experience I had undergone within relationships, I grew an attachment to negativity undeniably absorbing my mental, emotional, and physical energy as I allowed my attachment to grow stronger I had known no other which led to attracting the same vibrational energies repeating that same frequency hoping that this toxic cycle would become broken through many years of repeating the same old stagnant cycles I had neglected myself with having no recognition on whom I was or on what my purpose of life was for, all that I had known was to be a people-pleaser to care by placing their needs, wants before my own to give love and respect to help others grow and evolve, until eventually, my soul became exhausted I had absolutely nothing to give my very own body was empty caused by my own self-neglect.
2018 my spiritual awakening began not only did I lose myself the foundation of my life started to fall away which was my home, car, financial stability, and people with whom I once associated at this point everything external and internal was gone by the force of divine intervention preparing for my spiritual awakening.
I had absolutely no control over my identity and how I viewed society, people, and programs of life the system in which I lived started to become an illusion, through this stage which lasted for six months my ego had no control because my soul was starting to awaken.
As my energy shifted to an utter place of bliss, happiness, and joy this beautiful high vibration I was experiencing was unexplainable I felt in tune with nature filled with gratitude and a desire for simplicity as I became more aware of how I found a loving connection with my energy my heart was starting to awaken
becoming more intuned with my intuition through this stage lasted for two months.
Suddenly out of nowhere, the blissful energy I had felt flowed straight through me replacing it with stagnancy, stuck with confusion totally unaware of my feelings of depression left abandoned with my mind, body, and soul in dark murky energy my soul showed all the traumas that I had hidden deep within my subconscious mind it was time for these to resurface for acknowledgment on, why I had held on to my traumas, then to understand that they no longer serve a purpose in my life anymore this was purely blocking my ability for growth and I was to face my unwanted outdated programs for then to heal, release and forgive. During this stage, I had no connection with the universe nor my spirit guides this was a time when I was in total self-isolation my conscious mind was in complete darkness through this process my body was in agony shifting all old stagnant blocked toxins that had been stored for years it came to a point that I felt I was dying as that was exactly what was happening my old self was transforming for my new self to be born through this purging time I experienced weight loss, sickness, sweating, crying, tennis elbow, dramatic loss of appetite, dehydration, insomnia this painful stage was for six months the whole transformation of this stage took two years.
I began to pass through new energies as the darkness was slowly fading while I was heading towards the light, through this transition I felt my old self dying as my new self was emerging I became discombobulated by what was happening from feeling amazing I could conquer anything then dramatically back to where I was previously, this was a whirlwind of spiritual tests as I was not fully healed from (the dark night of the soul) with being pulled from old self to new self then became stuck in a void as not having learnt those lessons, in time I eventually became aware of learning my lessons by listening to my thoughts, body language my actions - reactions to transmute energy with self, love, talk, care, and self-awareness and to be gentle with myself that there is no time on healing old wounds.
I had found a state of oneness with all, of deep inner peace with love and acceptance, as confidence grew I found my personal power able to discover my true life purpose with courage, compassion, and determination to fulfill my true desire a passion to gain insight, and knowledge to attune healing abilities with spiritual gifts and become the best version of myself becoming grounded within the energy I create is powerful than I could ever imagine having the ability for connectedness with the divine and my spirit guides instantly, manifestations dramatically increased all of my senses became heightened, intuition strengthened, fully connected with my consciousness becoming spiritually awakened stripped away all of my unwanted beliefs, habits, dependencies, ego-based values illusions now living within true authenticity I hold total awareness of who am i.
How my life has changed.
Clarity within myself through what is important and what has no importance, as to hold no attachments.
A new state of Awareness that allows me to feel that we are all interconnected with the universe, having awareness of what suits my needs for positive self-containment.
To see the perspective of any given situation so as not to cloud judgments with assumptions that everything is a lesson for self-development.
Heightened senses with the ability to maintain high vibrational energy with how I choose to attract frequencies through my sight, smell, taste, touch, and movement.
Intuition strength has become my all-knowing with everyone and everything having the ability to read energy and to have faith in my higher self.
Gratitude becomes authentically, and consciously aware this holds no judgment with wanting gratitude in return and having full gratitude for life's simplicity.
Understandment that I can only control how I see and feel and that I have a choice to change the direction to where I place my energy, allowing me to appreciate that no one has control over another.
Peace and calmness to have full awareness that my thoughts and words create my reality creating manifestations, that at any given moment I have the control to change the trajectory to protect the energy I withhold.
Living in my truth I am able to speak my truth having no filter as I know no other, having the ability of truth for myself and others is formed with authenticity alongside sensing the energy of untruthfulness.
Knowing I have a deep profound knowing of what energy is heading my way through setting my intentions manifest before my eyes.
My new profound Interest in gaining insight and knowledge aligns with my soul's purpose of gaining enlightenment on my spiritual abilities through meditation, mindfulness, yoga, and sustaining wellness, having a newfound interest that supports my energy on further development for growth.
My Energy has become completely lighter and free from toxins/negativity with sharper clarity living in my consciousness maintaining emotional stability and promoting physical strength.
Love and Empathy The love that I now have for myself is unconditional as I choose to love myself enough by placing my own contentment first, with placing empathy in a perspective toward others with their feelings that it is okay to say no" by choosing self-kind self-worth with myself.
I have reached Desirelessness as I no longer become attached to the outside of myself for fulfillment, my ego no longer has that control, replaced with an overwhelming realization that I want for nothing.
My Purpose in life is to be fulfilled with happiness to have a life of purpose, to be kind and compassionate to care for myself and others to help and support improvement promoting growth to experience myself as I really am to find my gift to give it away.